I wish you would come around more.
I don’t say that to make you feel guilty, because I know what you’re going through must be hard.
But I selfishly wish you would come around more.
Life isn’t so perfect for me, ya know. I have my struggles, too. That’s why I wish you would come around. So you know you’re not alone and that we can work through things together.
The unreturned phone calls, texts, emails, messages... I pretend they don’t sting. But truth be told, I have to wipe my tears away when I hear that voicemail greeting. It’s hard to not take it personal. Did I do something wrong? Did I say something to make you want to keep your distance?
But I know that you don’t do it to hurt anyone. You don’t do it to hurt me. Your soul just feels broken and you think it’s too much for others to handle.
But did you know that you don’t have to be anyone or anything other than yourself? Your heart? It’s made of gold and that makes you so special. Your laughter and smile lights up a ROOM when you let it. Your goofiness & compassion can make anyone feel welcome. You’re so amazing, and I wish you could see that.
I promise, that if you decide to come around more one day, that I will show you your greatness. I will work to show you the beauty you can have in your life.
But until then, I give you your space. I know that no one can be helped unless they want to be helped. I pray for the day you need me. And not in an enabling way, but simply to need me in your life.
Just know this: I will always love you. You matter, you’re beautiful and brilliant, and you have more to offer this world than you realize.
Take all the time you need to sort through the parts of your life that hurt you. I’ll be here, waiting with open arms to create more memories with you.